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2000-09-20 - 12:51 am I just read my sister's latest diary entry. This really shocked me! She is talking about what my Dad said to her on the phone earlier tonight. She says "well right before he called me he said he talked to my grandfather. they did a bone scan, and he has tumors all over his body. everywhere. he has less than 6 months to live. he is making his own funeral arrangements. he knows he is going to die." So, if this is all true and all. Including this month he would die in February. Great.....another death for me in February. See, about four years ago on my Feberuary break. My friend Nicole, since kindergarden, father died out of nowhere of a heart attack. I spent my sophmore year of high school's February break in a funeral home. Since my family was close to her. Just a week before it happened....her father was ok and smiling. He drove Nicole and I to school. I remember him as always smiling and very happy! When I got in the car, he would say good morning and hi to me! He lost his life too soon! I am not exactly sure, but I think my favorite teacher from high school Goldie's mother died during my senior year of high school in February. She was a sweet lady and I remember I broke the news to Keith when I met him outside the classroom. We both looked straight at each other and hugged for a long time. The most recent february death was Larry. That was just as hard as the others. He was a part of my group of friends in high school. I would never picture him killing himself! Today and forever we will never know why. He left no note......he just hung himself and left the world behind. I will never forget what the day was like when I heard what happened while I was away at school. I remember after I found out. I was so mad, I lashed out at my friends at the littlest thing. I remember I came to dinner with my face red from tears. I remember looking at my friends Erica, Viviana and Chris at dinner that night I found out. I told them what happened. Then I said "I have to go home, oh god......Keith!! I have to see Keith......he needs me!" I remember I cried again there.....my friends were all like we are here if you need us. Then later I went back to my room and cried at the littlest thing. It took me like two weeks to get back on track, but I did it! Now, back to my Pop-Pop thing. I am like if he dies soon.....I am not really sure how to react. Should I laugh or cry? He was not really a big part in my life. I probably will cry. He is my only grandfather and all! This is so hard! What should I do? Luv ya, abby � � |