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2000-11-13 - 5:06 pm Today, as I was walking to my psych class. I walk past "The Enemy"! No, it was not Keith nor was it Marc. That was a relief. "The Enemy" is this girl named Lauren that was in my grade in high school. No, I was never friends with her and I never will be. I do have another friend named Lauren, but she is nice and very kind. See for 13 years for my life, I was made fun in school. Some kids saw that I had a pyshical disability and though I was a perfect target. I was called every name under the sun as well tripped and had things stolen. Here is the story why I hated "The Enemy" Lauren. She was buddy with this one girl named Maria. Maria was a bitch and slut in my mind. Well these girls during my frosh year of high school decided to gang on me. They called me names like "loser", "stupid", "crippled" and told me I smelled. Maria one time said "This girl is a loser and buys her clothes at kmart." One time Maria and Lauren ganged up on me one day in gym. They grabbed me and pushed me againist a locker. Told me if I told anyone they would beat me up or kill me. Well, I would walk out of the locker room and into gym everyday with tears in my eyes thinking if I told I would die. I did not tell anyone, but one day this one gym teacher saw me come out with tears in my eyes. She said "Come with me." So I did not knowing who she is. She said "It is ok to cry. What happened?" I told her the whole story. This teacher offered me that I could talk to her whenever I wanted to. It took me a while to tell my parents what was happening. I remember I confessed when I was listening to beatles cd with my sister. She told my Mom and Dad. They called the school, but the school as always did shit. My Sister told Brian (My high school crush and I am longer in touch with) and her friends that were Seniors, they were a grade below her. They went up to Lauren and Maria and told them if you want to pick on her you have to get through us first. At the time, being 14 and a frosh I thought it was the best thing ever!! Especially, since my crush checked on me almost everyday in school to see if I was ok. I loved it!This was awesome!! Well, after our frosh year, Maria moved away. Lauren never really bothered me anymore. Actually sad thing was Lauren became friends with my group of friends who were in my grade. That is one reason why I spilt from them during my junior and senior year. I attached myself to Keith and his friends. That is how I became to know Marc and Larry. Keith knowing all this happened to me brought our friendship into a close level. I have not been made fun of since I graduated from high school. So, it is a relief to have that gone. That is why when I graduated high school during the ceremony I cried like a baby. See, 13 years of being picked on over. Leaving Keith the best friend I have ever known. Saying goodbye to my true friends at that time had not graduated. You wondering what happened to the teacher who helped me? Well, she was 40 at the time she helped me. Her dream was to get pregnant and have a child after no success. She had the child, but not too long after it's birth it passed away. She could not handle the pain. I don't know how she did it, but commited suicide. My friend's mom knew her and my friend called me to tell me the news i think the summer after my sophmore year. I heard the news and told my friend to hold on. I covered the phone and cried like a baby. My angel who helped me was gone! I told my friend the story and she asked if I was ok. My reply was "Yeah, I am fine it is just so sad." To this Day, I will not forget her and I think she is in heaven with her child that she lost. "And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven (I will see you eventually yeah)Like so many friends we've(I know you're looking down from Heaven) lost along the way And I know (I know, I know, yeah yeas)Eventually we'll be together, (yes we will)One sweet day,(one sweet day, yeah)Sorry, I never told you...All I wanted to say..." - Mariah Carey and Boyz II Men Luv ya, Abby � � |