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2000-12-29 - 5:02 pm I know...I am way behind. Well...my computer decides to be slower than shit and freeze on me when I am about to press the done button. Hopefully, when we move.....that problem will be gone. In terms of a new computer, right? I hope it will be. Well....I have been sitting here going I want to go out for New Year's eve. I am 19 and want to party. No, I am stuck like a little kid at home. It is with family, but I want freedom! Like Keith> said to me once..."I want to see you.....I want you to show me the real you. Not the girl that is being control by her family. I love you for you.....ok?" I hear that over and over again in my head. He is right.....I will do that! I did spend New Year's with him one year. Actually, I was his date for a party at his neighbor's house. It was New Year's of 1998 going into 1999. We were insperiable (sp?) that night. It started the feelings I started getting for him, but I did not know if it was real. I mean like love feelings....I saw him in a new light. A few things play in my mind from that night. First, some people at the party kept saying "You to should date. What a cute couple you would be" or "I think you two should kiss." Another was me and him kept having streamer fights with each other. One scary one is standing in front of the tv with him when the ball dropped. We hugged each other and the exact words were "Happy new year buddy!" and then we almost kissed. After the party, about 12:30, we went across the street. At his house his Dad set off fireworks. I looked at them and saw in the corner of my eye Keith looking as me different. I was thinking.....he must love me. Then I remember Keith hugging me tight to get me warm. It was so perfect! I actually had a date for new year's. Hopefully, one day I will again. You never know.....maybe I will next year in Alabama. Luv ya, Abby "I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life" - Dido � � |