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2001-02-08 - 3:44 pm A year ago today, my life changed for the better and maybe the worse. I am writting this entry to explain the entry before it. This is a sad and kinda graphic entry. Don't read if you hate things about death or worse thing in the world.....suicide. On February 8,2000 a friend of mine named Larry decided to kill himself on his 18th birthday. Larry was best friends with Keith. That is how I got to know him. He was one sweetest guys and I never saw anything sad in him. I would never think he would want to die. Larry did and he killed himself. He left school and went home. Got a belt and hung himself from a banaster. I did not find out the news till the next day. It was February 9, 2000 and I got up that morning to go to my 8am english class. I hated that class and sat there doodling "I love keith!" in hearts and smiley faces or writting beatles in many ways I can think of. My teacher was 67 and boring as shit! Class ended and I walked out into the cold back to my dorm. I walked across campus to my dorm. Got into my room and turned my computer on. I signed on to my AOLIM buddylist. Looked at it and said "Awwww....Keith is home....he must have his period off." Since now he was a senior. So, I clicked on his name and wrote "Hi sweetie! I miss you! how is my love today?" He replied back with "Hi! I have sad news to tell you!" My reply was "Ok! Waz up?" "Dara, Larry is gone! He killed himself! Larry is dead...what am I going to do? My best friend is gone!" At first I thought he was joking. "Keith are you serious? Larry is gone? What happened?" Keith goes "I came home from school yesterday....my mom comes in the room. She says Keith....I have some sad news Larry killed himself today." "Oh Keith",I wrote back, "I can't believe it!! Are you ok? I am so sorry....I can't believe it! Hold on I need to get tissue." "Dara I better go....I am going to Larry's house today, his Mom wants Marc and I to come over." All I said next was, "I love you! Keith I am so sad." He signed off. I imed Jenna "Did you hear..." She goes "Dara, you mean the kid who killed himself?" I said "Jenna, it was Larry....keith's best friend. I don't know what to do....Larry is dead! I want Keith here now!" "Oh Dara,I am so sorry! I had no clue you knew him." We talked about it then Jenna signed off. I went to dinner that night even though I didn't feeling eating. My face was bright red from crying and being all upset. My friends asked me....what's wrong? "My friend larry killed himself yesterday. He was my boyfriends best friend. I WANT TO GO HOME!!! KEITH NEEDS ME!! I WANT TO GO HOME!!!" A couple of my friends laughed...they could not take the sadness. My other friend gave me a hug while I cried like a baby. February 10, 2000.....Larry's funeral. I had to stay at school. It was one of the hardest things. I talked to keith and he said he was going to call me that night at 8. I waited and it was getting late. I called his house and his father said "He is at Larry's house and will be home. I will tell him to call you or do you want to call Larry's?" "No, just ell him to call me". About 10, my phone rang. "Hi....I don't know what to do Dara. It was so sad today. The whole grade and half the school was here." I said "Oh my god! That is amazing!" He goes "I left Larry's after I saw how late it was and knew I had to call you...I told Berg (a friend of ours) and marc I need to go call my girlfriend. They laughed and said you better! I found out how Larry went through with it. He went home from school and hung himself." We talked for an hour and then hung up! I sat for a while crying my eyes out. If you know anyone wanting to commit suicide or withdrawl from the world. Get them help! It is not the way to go. Life is to short....live it up! Luv ya, Dara "Life happens to you while your busy making other plans." - JWOL! � � |