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2001-06-13 - 12:36 p.m. 13/14 days till my birthday. Ok....so now I am back. Right now it is really hard time in my family. Once again, we are back at square one. My Dad is back doing a job search. It is all a big mess. We are going to be stuck in Alabama....struggling again. Teh last time my Dad lost a big job, I was a sophmore in high school. At the time, I was failing biology. My teacher was very strick and hard. It was the wrong teacher to give to someone who was classified. So, what happened to me? I got majorly depressed.....like suicidal depressed. Barely went to school and when I did I would pretend I was sick. All I wanted to do was sit in my room and listen to the beatles. I could so say that was the time in my life were I hit rock bottom. Now, I am older and a lot stronger....no way am I going down that road again. That is why when that teacher I knew killed herself and when larry died....I totally broke down. Especially, when larry died....I said that could have been me. He was just a year younger than me. Larry held in his pain...just like I did. I had dreams....it was me hanging there....it scared the motherfucking shit out of me. luv ya, Dara � � |