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2000-08-23 - 12:45 am The other day I had an on-line conversation with my friend Heather. Actually, she is the younger sister to my friend Jen. I have known Heather since she was in fourth grade and now she is going to be a senior in high school. It seems so weird since I was her big sister at the big/little sibling when she was a frosh. Anyways, she was talking about what's new with her and all. I told her how I was on that night to kill some stress. Well....I said " My Grandfather is slowly dying, my Uncle who has down syndrome is being abused at his house and I amm searching for schools. Plus, kissing Keith three weeks ago keeps haunting me." She was like "You kissed Keith? You never told me that!!!" I told her what happened that night and all. Heather came back telling me that she almost went through the same thing. She kissed this guy BLake, but is no way attracted to him. It was the same night I kissed Keith. We both laughed and was like that is weird. I asked her what should I do. She said don't think about it. So, that is what I trying to do. I told Heather, "Kissing him brought back memories, feelings of love and friendship." She then was amazed by it. Heather then went "I don't know what to say....I got go....bye!" I remember about month or so ago when my Mom took me to the psychotrist ( excuse spelling). He had me talk about what has been going on and Keith came in to topic. I remember tears started to fall one by one. The doctor looked at me. He said "Keith was someone special and you must really care about him?" I said "Yeah, he was very special. I will never forget him." I knew if I said more it would bring on more and more pain with tears. Lately, when I lok out the window to the driveway in front of the house. I picture him in my mind. Especially, the night he came to pick me up and there was snow on the ground. He stood there and all of a sudden lost his balance and fell right on his ass! LMAO!! Then he stood up took me in his arms and give me a hug. Out of his mouth came "Hi my love, brown eyes." I look out at the driveway now and that memory comes to mind. One day when that memory came to mind....I started to cry....I told myself it is over. That is life. I have to move on, but I will always remember him. He will always be in my heart even when I am older....marry someone and all! Oh well! Luv ya, Abby � � |